I am... I'm not... I want to be.

Confession: Sometimes my mommy brain is so bad, I can't even muster an original thought.

I'm not proud. I'm just a tired, overworked, underpaid, mom. And a blogger. A not so great one as of late. Even when I do have those moments, those wonderful moments of ridiculousness that my blog was built on, actually finding the time to scrawl it down on a napkin or dirty tissue pulled from my purse, can be a challenge. And if I don't write it down RIGHT AWAY, it's gone. It's as if it never happened. In mere seconds the fabulous flow of words, of humor and sarcasm, are replaced with shouts of, "get your head out of the toilet" or "do not hang from that curtain rod"... Poof it's gone!

So, when I read a blog post, a really good, thought provoking blog post, naturally it gets me thinking. In this case, it gets me thinking about how easy it would be to steal said blog post and put it right here on this page. And thanks to Avitable, I once again have something to say. And this was, by no means, as easy as I would have hoped. But do check
out Avitable's original. He makes it look so easy.

I am... I'm not... I want to be.

I am jealous
I'm not resentful
I want to be content

I am a mother
I'm not sorry
I want to be needed

I am more than a mother
I'm not a clone
I want to be treated like an individual

I am earthy
I'm not flaky
I want to be treated with respect

I am intelligent
I'm not a genius
I want to be admired

I am a person of worth
I'm not perfect
I want to be able to look in the mirror and be satisfied.

I am a blogger
I'm not a rocket scientist
I want to be accepted

BlogHer? No Sir!

Confession: I'm insanely jealous of the ladies at BlogHer10 right now.

Insanely jealous. I won't even try to lie. Sure I'm having a blast at HomeHer10, brought to you by our friend BackPackingDad. It's for those of us who are, you know, too pathetic awesome to go to a little conference like BlogHer. And I'm trying out the whole BlogHer at home thing. But, I'm still bitter. I had it all locked up. I was supposed to be there. I had my full ride as a volunteer this year. I had transportation on the bus with the Philly Social Media Moms. I even had a place to stay (at The Hilton- sob sob). But, like most of the things that don't revolve around making dinner and folding laundry, it just wasn't meant to be.

I couldn't manage to get together my childcare situation in time for me to be where I needed to be. It was the last day of camp for the girls. And it was my baby, my #3's first public performance in his summer camp show. So, as in year's past, my BlogHer dreams had to remain just that. And I know I should be totally happy for all the fantabulous, amazing woman who are frolicking around NYC right now, having brilliant conversations, attending fun parties, and oh yeah, gaining tons of valuable information about their craft. And I am, kinda. But, waaaaah. And furthermore, waaaah. And also, waaaaah. Because I am missing NYCMamas wax museum party. And I am missing the amazing community keynote. And I am missing Sparklecorn. Come on? Sparklecorn!

I hear that they've already picked the locale of BlogHer11. San Diego. San freakin' Diego. As in, that place that could not possibly be any further from where I live without being IN the ocean! Maybe if I start planning now, I can get there. And maybe this time I'll actually make it. Otherwise, who's up for HomeHer11?